SRI LANKA first days/daze
there is a horizon of red across my eyeballs, abrasion and burn from grime and diesel particulates. i have been here in Colombo 2 days, unable to find words or form coherent impressions to share post-retreat. however did i get here, from the very bosom of Nature and Quietude?!! despite the shock of contrast , however, i am feeling alive and alert, readily embracing this totally Other World of circumspect strangers, mad streets, bustle, hustle… and yet i am also in some kind of fog, as if not sure who, where, what i am. and there are times when i just feel really f-ing tired of traveling alone and want to be on my way home already… i do know that in order to “please” (avoid offending) everyone, i have a adopted a look that leaves me appearing like an Amish Hippy Buddhist Skatepunk - covered to the elbows and knees in the coolest flow-iest clothing, a kerchief covering my shorn head, oh and let’s not forget the birkenstocks… it is NOT a particularly alluring look, let me assure you, but it may keep me from getting hassled too much, or imprisoned. trying to take it all in stride…this whole “modesty” thing smacks of shame about the female body, and as such, rankles… but i am trying to be respectful of House Rules, as it were. …other key impressions from Colombo? HORNS ARE FOR HONKING!!!!!!! whenever possible, for any and every reason, or no reason at all beyond Just Because… also, maybe shouldn't have shaved my head post-retreat…? i will write about retreat, i promise, but its not coming just yet. aside from the difficulty of giving expression to the ineffable, the experience feels fragile and precious to me in a way, and i don't want to “get it wrong”… there’s so much i had wanted to describe and now the effort of narrative feels burdensome. perhaps i can approach it more impressionistically, a stream of consciousness.i have a whole week surfing on the south coast starting sunday, so i expect i may be able to settle into a bit more of a groove then. we’ll see. be the peace.
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Anah
1/16/2016 07:47:02 am
I'm listening...it's interesting..You r brave xx
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