10/14/2015

This morning was a “what the…??!!!” morning…where for a brief few seconds in that liminal space between sleeping unconscious and waking mind, i was in love and happily married…then the thud of realization - “uh, nope, that’s over. you're in New Zealand! …by yourself…” It’s not such a heavy thing anymore, just kind of funny, that some part of me reverts during sleep to the partnered version of me!!!  I do wonder just how long this phenomenon will persist tho’…?Anyhow…torrential rain for hours and hours last night - by far the heaviest I’ve experienced here. The sound of it on the roof of the caboose quite lovely until I realized it was so loud it was actually keeping me from sleep. This morning, everything is drenched and dripping, spicy fragrant, bird chirpy, and I have brought my tea back to bed, as I’m not quite ready to relinquish this warm cozy perch. Yoga this morning and then a surf - promises to be another great day :)

Yoga was super inspiring - felt almost like it could redefine the trip, or at least set a new  intention for it, that being to soften and allow, while claiming my own authority and power such and where it is. The degree to which I strive for things and harden into them is the degree to which I shackle myself to a certain outcome, and undermine any chance for spontaneous self-expression/discovery. Always amazing the lessons the mat can provide…:)
I’m learning about this, accepting small challenges and widening my comfort zone, This is what I hope to keep from all of this.
After lunch, a trip to the beach with a bunch of the volunteers here - too wild and messy to take Tilda out, but I gave someone a surf lesson, and alternately baked and froze on the beach. Never go ANYWHERE in NZ without sunscreen, a warm coat, and rain gear!! Oh! and a crossing of paths with a small grey heron on the hike back from the beach. I am loving the birds here.
That’s all for now - the wind has sucked it out of me, and I will retire to the bad sci-fi novel I just picked up…finished my scholarly texts and high quality fiction days ago!!!